The Strongest Among You May Not Wear A Crown

Ok so Cory's favorite band of all time is 3 Doors Down. Not too long ago we went to their concert (which was AMAZING, they actually were touring with a Christian band named Red who was also amazing). They played some of their new songs on their (what was then) up coming CD. Lately I have been listening to them a lot. There is one song that although they are not Christian and they wrote this about our National Guard this is a great song to remind Christian that we are in a battle and what we are called to do as soliders in God's Army. My favorite line in the whole song is the last line "The strongest among you may not wear a crown."

"Citizen / Soldier"

Beyond the boundaries of your city's lights,

Stand the heroes waiting for your cries.

So many times you did not bring this on yourself, When that moment finally comes,

I'll be there to help.

On that day when you need your brothers and sisters to care, I'll be right here.

Citizen soldiers holding the light for the ones that we guide from the dark of despair.

Standing on guard for the ones that we sheltered,

We'll always be ready because we will always be there.

When there are people crying in the streets,

When they're starving for a meal to eat,

When they simply need a place to make their beds,

Right here underneath my wing,You can rest your head.

On that day when you need your brothers and sisters to care, I'll be right here!

Citizen soldiers holding the light for the ones that we guide from the dark of despair.

Standing on guard for the ones that we sheltered,

We'll always be ready because we will always be there

Hope and pray that you'll never need me,

But rest assured I will not let you down.

I'll walk beside you but you may not see me,

The strongest among you may not wear a crown.

There is another song on the same CD called Let me be me. As someone who has struggled with fitting in with the crowd this other song has expressed those feelings. And as adults sometimes we forget how hard it was in middle school and high school to fit in while still being who you want to truly be. Also we will still tend to fall in to a category of expressing our own views so not be thought of as ignorant or judgemental or too (fill in the blank). We forget who we are and especially as Christians can tend to loose yourself in those things because that's what makes the rest of the world "happy". This is about finding yourself again and the things that you are good at.

"Let Me Be Myself"

I guess i just got lost

Bein' someone else

I tried to kill the pain

Nothin ever helped

I left myself behind

Somewhere along the way

Hoping to come back around

To find myself someday

Lately i'm so tired of waiting for you

To say that it's ok, but tell me

Please, would you one time

Just let me be myself

So i can shine with my own light

Let me be myself

Would you let me be myself

I'll never find my heart

Behind someone else

I'll never see the light of day

Living in this cell

It's time to make my way

Into the world i knew

Take back all of these times That i gave in to you

Lately i'm so tired of waiting for you

To say that it's ok, but tell me

Please, would you one time

Let me be myself

So i can shine with my own light

And let me be myself

For a while, if you don't mind

Let me be myself

So i can shine with my own light

Let me be myself

That's all i've ever wanted from this world

I dream of a day

I dream of a day when politicians actually defend their policies without slinging mud at each other. I know I might be naive but that's what I hope for someday. I still have no idea of what exactly Obama wants to change and how he is going to do it.

I'm going back to school

I am pretty sure I'm going back to school and going to get a BS in Nursing.

I am officially a college graduate

yes I walked over a year ago but i had another class. Well I got word today that everything has been approved and I will have in hand my diploma in probably November!

Reconnecting with an old friend!

Although this is sad my old roommate and good friend Aubrey is going through a divorce. However, this has been a huge blessing to me. When she met her ex-husband we stopped hanging out. Mostly because although a nice guy, he had NO Social skills. Think of the most awkward person you know and then at least double it. They had a hard relationship towards the end and he couldn't hold down a job.

Although this is all bad and I feel for her, it has been awesome for our relationship. We hang out at least once every 2 weeks and it has made my life so much better. For a while now I feel like I have lost most of my girl friends due to distance (meaning I can't hang out with them) or them getting married or just not being interested in the same things I am. Aubrey was my very best friend through college so I am very excited to have her back in my life. Tonight we actually went dancing and although we had to wait in line for like an hour and a half we still managed to laugh through most of it and have fun for the little bit we got to actually dance. So I am happy to reconnect with an old friend who means so much to me!

****Side note: I went to a Tyrone Wells little concert thing last night and it AMAZING. Not because he played Seabreeze or his other songs (although good), it was mostly because he was very personable in his story telling. The other part that made it so good was he played this song that will be on his new CD and it moved me. It talks about how even though we are going to heaven that we should still want to live this life to the fullest with out loosing our faith, because our best friend and companion who never leaves us will be with us all of the time. I was almost brought to tears about how personal it was and the journey we go on as Christians. I cannot wait for the CD to come out on itunes for me to buy it.

These are some of my favorites

A Little Better

With my last blog let me explain what has been going on. I have been in pain for over a week. My stomach hurts (suprise suprise). On Labor Day I started being in some serious pain. By Tuesday I was in enough pain to go to Urgent Care. The doctor said what I had thought, I had another partial intestinal obstruction. I had to go on a liquid diet for 24-48 hours. Since then I have been going on this wonderful yo-yo of being naseous, pain, and well other not so fun stuff. (oh yeah and my stupid GI doctor took a couple of days to even call me back, then decided to lecture me about a test that I couldn't get done since work has been crazy)

So anyway combined with a little disagreement with Cory and frustrating people at work that is what resulted. Hopefully I will have answers soon and with that the lessening of pain and the ablility to keep my food down once again.