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A Little Better

With my last blog let me explain what has been going on. I have been in pain for over a week. My stomach hurts (suprise suprise). On Labor Day I started being in some serious pain. By Tuesday I was in enough pain to go to Urgent Care. The doctor said what I had thought, I had another partial intestinal obstruction. I had to go on a liquid diet for 24-48 hours. Since then I have been going on this wonderful yo-yo of being naseous, pain, and well other not so fun stuff. (oh yeah and my stupid GI doctor took a couple of days to even call me back, then decided to lecture me about a test that I couldn't get done since work has been crazy)

So anyway combined with a little disagreement with Cory and frustrating people at work that is what resulted. Hopefully I will have answers soon and with that the lessening of pain and the ablility to keep my food down once again.

Is this just me?

Although I am aware that guys probably do not feel like this most of the time, but girls do you ever feel like every little thing you do is wrong? I don't know if it is hormones or what exactly it is but you revert back to the way you felt when you were an insecure teenager? I am having one of those days, when just anything most people say is just taken the wrong way, you may play it off as your not taking it personally but it completely puts a damper on your self esteem. And even though you can logically think it through to know that the person didn't mean it the way you took it, you still feel bad. As a personal boundary I put up is when that happens is becoming angry and hurt, mostly about how they don't take their part of the blame when it comes down to it. This may be within friendships, relationships, or my personal favorite family members. This is a hard feeling to describe. I honestly feel like I'm being completely psycho sometimes and I know it puts a hardship on the people I'm closest to but I don't know how to make it go away. I feel like crawling under a rock by myself and just crying for a little while and then I think I will be fine. I pray I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes.

P.S. One of my doctors thinks that a medicine that I have been taking for years is most likely had an impact on my weight gain and inability to loose, so she is having me get off it. I had stepped off it probably sooner than I should of because of years taking it. This medicine helps prevent migraines, is a muscle relaxant, and has an anti-depressant rolled into 1, so that probably isn't helping with this whole emotional thing. Don't worry I'll be fine my brain just needs to start making more serotonin, because I've only be off of it for less than a week so its still adjusting

The Biggest Loser

Now I dont know how many of you watch the show The Biggest Loser but this show has now become a part of our life. In May Cory's company started their own competition and Cory won ($500.00). Now my company is starting one and it is over a 3 month span and the winner gets over $600. I am very excited because hopefully this will give me the motivation to actually lose the weight that I need to lose. Oh and it is judged by the percentage of weight lost not actual pounds to make it more fair. I am really excited also because it is over about a month before I go on the cruise.

Something I'm concerned about

So with Cory loosing his job soon we started looking for another job for him. Within the last week the company I work for decided to fire someone and they want to hire 2 guys so its less strain on our current guys. Well the quality of the candiates were well pretty bad. So pretty much we are going to hire Cory for part time pool cleaning. While I am very excited he has a job and a place to work that will give him decent money this becomes concerning because I will be his boss. I will be handling his payroll, any compliants or questions, pretty much if he screws up i have to get mad at him for it. While I have complete confidence in him, I still wonder how he will do having me as his boss.

My doctor's visit

My doctor's visit was interesting. We had the awkward part because you know how it is. But after that we had an interesting conversation about my weight gain and my stomach problems. I have started taking vitamins that are the same chemicals that your body produces and it has decreased my stomach pain substantially. We also talked about the fact that I am trying to lose weight but cant seem to get past my plateau. So she is sending me to a dietitian. Which I am really looking forward to because I think it will help a lot. Plus I am getting an ultra sound done on my Thyroid tomorrow because we know that I have cysts on it but I haven't had them checked in about 4 to 5 years. So we need to see if they have grown or shrank or if they are collecting thyroid fluid which is why I would not be able to loose weight. I think that's about it. My doctor was really nice and she kept saying "well people your age don't normally deal with that, but your body has proven not to be normal, I mean gall stones by the age of 22 with previous history of irritation around that area is something we would see in a 50 year old." It reminds me of the move Jack with Robin Williams. I kind of wonder if that is what my body is doing in a way.

My boss needs to come back!

I don't know if I mentioned this but both of my bosses (they are a married couple) are on vacation this week and next week. So not only am I doing my job but I am trying to take over as much responsibility from them as possible so that they can actually relax while on vacation. Let me tell you Monday SUCKED! I had to do payroll which takes a good 2 1/2 hours of my day plus dealing with everything that comes in that normally goes to them. Now I know that I should be a pro at my job because I started here in march...yeah not really. I ONLY started in March and when you handle everything that does not seem like enough time to learn an entire business that you have never been involved in before. I am calling our repair guy about every hour to see what he thinks for the stuff I dont know. He has now started making fun of me for it. So more than Cory needs to come back (although I am so looking forward to when he does so I can make him give me a back massage) I want Traci and Fred to come back more! Plus they are good people and I really like them. It isn't a job I hate going to or anything and I think a main part of that is the fact that they are the best people to work for.

Let me tell you how awesome they actually are. I was invited to go to Lake Powell with Cory and Traci would have worked with me to let me go if they weren't going to be gone the same week. Plus I am going on a cruise to Mexico with my family for Christmas and she is going to work with me to do that. They understand family values and try to give me as much freedom as possible because they know I am responsible with it. Not only are they extremely nice with vacation time but I told them I could not change jobs with out insurance so they are paying my cobra payment until I can get on their insurance. Which should be september but Traci just told me that they can continue paying it until March when it would be the next opportunity to get on their insurance so that I can keep my doctor. They try to take a Christian perspective to how they handle their business which is awesome, they are also not the "holier than thou" Christians which is AWESOME! Anyway I hope they have a good vacation but I can't wait until they are back.